She could be
Soft & sweet
Wrap you in
A blanket of kindness
Soothe your aches
Stimulate & awaken
Persuade & manipulate
All the desires
You’ve long lost hidden
Bring forth in you
What you never knew
Weave a spell
That leaves you subdued
Just open up
& she’ll prove
What your heart
Already knew
She’d been burned
Scorned scarred spurned
She’d walked the earth
With her head held down
She’d held her breath
& renounced her wealth
Then the day came
She realized
There were no more knights
No rescuers
She’d spread her own wings
& be the hero
She always needed
Somewhere
In the atmosphere
Burns a star
So very far
A light so dim
It skips along the rim
Dances with the moons
Trails its own path
Scattering its ash
Headed to a dark place
Where no one
Would ever see its face
Shattered into
A million pieces
My soul never
Really releases
All these little
Acts of treason
Done in cruelty
Or ignorant disbelief
Most go unnoticed
Slowly choking
Crushing vessels
Soaking up oxygen
Left to die & decay
Full of anger & dismay
This game
Was not to be played
I am old now
My body is for
Show & Tell
Scars mark an end
To a life not well lived
Frail & fragile mind
Taken over by
Disease & Time
Put my words out to pasture
My heart does
Wound & Fester
Retirement has come
A new dawn has begun
I wish you all well
Bury my soul
& never tell
Grab your muskets & your guns
This war is not yet won
A battle rages on
Two sides of liberty is being fought
Brother against Brother
Sisters, Mothers, Cousins
We all have a side to choose
Pray it be in time
History does not forget
The losing side
Listen to the silence
It is where your heart beats
Dance in the moonlight
It is when your demons speak
Find your way through the fog
Walk the path you seek
Never mind the howls
Wolves won’t feast
Look up to the stars
They light your way
If you do fall down
Remember
That is not where you stay
First it was a word
A flutter in her nerves
Then it was an action
Silent tingles that matched them
After was the silence
Loneliness in abject darkness
Lastly was the retreat
And her heart no longer beat
Darkness reined
The walls closed in
All she knew was
She had to escape
This type of pain
There were limits
To what would happen
There were boundaries
That she had built high
There were things
She’d never describe
There were scars
That she couldn’t hide
There were acts
She’d never subscribe
There was a love
That always divided
Be not afraid
Of this dark path
You crave
Be strong in your faith
Let your heart be your lamp
Your soul be your map
Trust only in your mind
Let it lead you to find
All that resides inside
Your inner compass will provide
The things you deign to hide
Will eventually come to light
Although my heart is weak
& my soul is but meek
I’ll find freedom
In these words we speak
Ink stained pages
Folded & creased
Meanings laced with delicacy
& a rhythm that is unceasing
As the edges touch briefly
I’ll remember this time increasingly
Obliterate me
& all that you see
Tear me down piece by piece
Don’t let me fight or weep
Rebuild each part
Right from the start
Mold my mind & heart
So that I may never again fall apart
Make me sturdy & strong
So in this war I can fight along
& defeat the demons that live on
Let the rain pour down
As the world makes no sound
Let is cleanse all my sins
From this body & within
Let it was away my dark thoughts
To be replaced with better ones
Let this be the end of my pain
Only for me to be born all over again
My soul needs a vacation
My heart has been stripped naked
My walls are rapidly shaking
My defenses once tough now are quaking
My body is thoroughly aching
My senses are miserably mistaken
My mind is no longer taken
Sleep my sweet darlin
Don’t weep within your heart
The sun will dawn again
& you’ll smile when you see it
The fog will lift
& the darkness you will forget
Lay your head down on the pillow
Let go of all the sorrow
You are stuck in the middle
But there is light at the end of your tunnel
Words are written souls
Dreams are fantasies that make us whole
Lust is desire’s cousin
Foolishly making us what we once wasn’t
Verbs are the actions of such gentlemanly distractions
Adverbs are the flowers of tender ladylike apparitions
The subject is you
Prepositioning proposals
She awoke at dawn
As the sun rose brightly on
Just another day
When she kept the rains at bay
Another chance she’d say
To make it thru this life my way
Morning had come
The sun had dawned
Clouds danced along
This Chicago skyline
Cool breeze did blow
From the lake she was shown
How a beautiful scene
Could give her heart peace
And make her mind serene
He scraped the blade
Across her skin
Cutting the letters
Deep in
A was for adulterer
S came next
L followed shortly
U can you guess
T was for timing
That he had on his side
Now the world would now
What she dared to hide
There were no words left
Just soft sighs
Hearts no longer bereft
Their passions had collided
Desires that burned down deep
Eyes that only saw
Love so effortlessly
It started with a kiss
Then a mumble
Turned into a hiss
A touch slide
Into a hug
Soft caresses
Made them breathless
When their souls touched
They found it effortless
that soft caress
something touching
more than flesh
a shared beat
of tender hearts
now gathered
only to fall apart
soft whispers of love
souls singing like doves
that mere second
of what was
only to be fleeting
like rain drops
It could’ve been me
That swallowed all your need
Drove you to the depths of caring
An endless desire to be pleased
It could’ve been my heart
That you chose to never part
Our souls caressing the unknown
Desperate to have what wasn’t shown
It could’ve & we should’ve
But it wasn’t & it haunts us
No wand can wipe away
Salty tears I keep at bay
Wrinkles on my face
Merely proof of the time I waste
No spell can be spoken
To make me one of the chosen
No forgiveness or redemption
Can make this worth living
Keep your fairy tales to your dreams
This is not the life I lead
Bring me a sea of memories
Let the tides ebb & flow
As my heart sinks down below
Let the storms come & rage
As I begin to turn the page
A life set in motion
My soul sings the rhythm of an ocean
My pleas are but a whisper
While my soul burns & blisters
Please don’t fret
Or worry about this mess
You r merely in the middle
& it’s scary I bet
But you can push forth
Will patience you’ll be rewarded
Wake each day with positivity
Make your heart into a luminary
Follow the path
The hurt won’t last
Keep your head up
This is life at its worst
Wave a wand
Form my tears into a pond
Make it crystal & clear
So that vipers can’t live here
Make the edges nice & neat
Allow the sun to shine down & beat
Make the fog dissipate
Causing the water to be stale & straight
Let the birds sing their soft songs
Until I move along
That glint in her eye
Or swivel in her hips
That delicate smile
Or the soft laugh upon her lips
Was it her kindness
Or that her soul was amiss
Was it her accent
Sweet Southern Bliss
Was is her ladylike manner
Or her sassy wit
Was it her heart
Or the fact it was hid
Please
She had said
Please
She had begged
Please
She had warned
Please
She wanted no harm
Please
She felt naive
Please
She needed to breathe
Please
She asked for no lies
Please
She prayed for more ties
Please
She knew haunted her soul
Please
She said but was never told
Shatter me
Help me feel
Bring forth that which
Can help me heal
Shatter the concepts
Of love being real
Teach me humanity
& how to be sealed
Shatter the boundaries
That dare to hold me still
Let me wings fly me
To a place where I am fulfilled
Once whole but no longer
Shattered beyond my control
My heart flounders
As pieces & shards
Float away with the breeze
Love is no longer felt
Notes no longer follow the chords
Words no longer fill the songs
Just the silence of
A heart being broken
What happened
To honesty & decency?
It was replaced with
Pure Hypocrisy.
What happened
To the unforgettable human?
They began to judge
And their soul became a demon.
What happened
To kindness & love?
It turned to mud
When the rains came down from above.
LOVE ME
when I’m feeling sexy
wearing my thigh highs
& those lacy panties
LOVE ME
when I’m down & lonely
wearing my heart on my sleeve
& crying those salty tears
LOVE ME
when I’m happy & flirty
wearing a bright smile
& thinking dirty
LOVE ME
cause you know
I forget to love myself
Call me a hurricane
Or a sweet magnolia
Call me a sinner
Or the devil’s whore
Call me a saint
I’ll tell you what I ain’t
Call me an angel
I’ll show you my broken halo
Call me a beautiful woman
I’ll convince you that I never was one
Call me a tease
Then maybe…I’ll beg & plead
I’ll do almost
Anything you want
But in return
I’ll need a home
For my heart
Confiscate my heart
Tempt it with a love that is taught
Confiscate my body
Show me what it never knew before
Confiscate my mind
Create a myriad of thoughts so divine
Confiscate my soul
Fill me with all those things that can make me whole
There was something wild
Hidden in her eyes
Her calm demeanor
Made it hard to recognize
Her polite smile
Showed you the lady that she was
Her words were a trance
You could feel them lightly dance
Across your mind
All maybe revealed in time
A soul so sublime
Seen only through rhyme
Forget all that was
When you are with me
Just feel free & breathe
I didn’t know it wasn’t wrong
Until I ended up where I didn’t belong
I once had a thought
That I hadn’t thought of
But then I had a dream
That only lived in heaven above
I committed a sin that sunk deep in
So my soul will reside in the hell of my skin
It was a whisper
It was a plea
But it flew away mysteriously
In the gentle morning breeze
With a country between them
Seas & deserts seamlessly
Dissipated with ease
When they traded teases
Words that speak clearly
Of desires turning into realities
Only reaching a peak
Because their souls dared to speak
Show me what’s deep inside
Hiding behind those demon eyes
As the music filled the air
She stopped short to stare
Lost in the mist of the notes
She remembered the time he did quote
How he had lost his soul
A dark haired raven had claimed him whole
Until the day their love was foiled
The radio played out their song
Let me be your haven
Your masterful worded maven
Let me cleanse you of all that hate
Relieve the stress of your fate
Let me bathe you in light
Force the dark out with my might
Let me caress your soul
& together we shall become whole
Deep inside
In the recesses of my mind
Hides a clear design
A treasure within the vines
At night you see the signs
Of the fire that here resides
Once snuffed but now alive
My body burns with such desire
Speak not of love to me
My heart beats for it desperately
Speak of truths & beliefs
Only say what you mean
Show me the moon
Hidden in your eyes
Give me the view
With no disguise
Make me laugh & smile
Never inspire tears
To fall from my eyes
His heart
Was her haven
A place where
She could stop
Breathe easy
Or just hold on
Where she could lay her head
Rest her thoughts
Where she was accepted
& sometimes taught
The light at the end of her tunnel
Open arms where she could cuddle
Rest her weary words
& be heard
She was in a class of her own
A tangled heart that sings songs
Floating through a life of her own
Humming soft notes & chords
Crafting her little worlds
Embedded in the tunes we heard
Rhyming about lost love
The moonlight & heavens above
But no one ever really knew who she was
Only brick & mortar
She knew that wasn’t enough
To build a stronger wall
Or even to raise it high up
No she had to give it her all
Make it as sturdy as her heart
To keep all the hatred
From tearing her safety apart
skidding along the curves
lingering around the lines
the touch is softly absurd
given there is so little time
tingles that seep down deep
bumps that appear even when asleep
it is but this one touch that makes me weep
knowing this feeling is the one i will keep
hidden in haunting shadows
In the darkness of a heart
where the echoes of a smile
rage against the dying of the night
a rebirth takes place
a sorted resurrected rendering
For a figure with loaded misgivings
that lies painted on my periphery
a disguise for those meant to see
she sits alone
with a pen
& her poems
her heart hurts
so much
she needs love
& tons of hugs
someone who sees
someone who feels
all these things
that weigh on her soul
how badly she wishes to be whole
but she is the sun
it is her universe
she’s strong
& one day
she’ll know
she’s won
There are
So many reasons
To cry
To try
To ask why
When the rains come
Troubles flow
From the sorrow
You hide
Look up
Gaze at the sky
Try to smile
Don’t ask the sun
Why it shines
Just bask in the glow
& convince yourself
That you are fine
shall I show you?
what’s hidden deep down?
what’s in my soul?
would you care to know?
what sins I crave?
what words that hold my heart slave?
what lies beneath
this facade I keep?
TEMPT ME
we all have
our favorites
words
positions
verbs
pictures
people
sins
devils
whims
tastes
textures
gestures
pleasures
so many to choose
so many to give
which do you do?
we are all fools
when it comes down
to picking a favorite
let mine be known
life behind a scowl
the time for tolerance is over
the narcissists & the greedy
have taken the reins
there is no more room
at this inn
the rich & filthy
want to draw lines
keep some out
unless they provide
their souls for slavery
locked in cages for eternity
what Hell have they made here
Her laugh
Was like a child’s
Her smile
Made the moon dance
Her curves
Gave way to shadows
But
Her eyes
Revealed her desires
Imagine there’s no sun
Imagine there’s no one
Imagine there’s no storm
Imagine there’s no warmth
Imagine you’re alone
Imagine a sea with no stones
Imagine the quiet wind blows
Imagine no shield from love
Imagine freedom unknown
Imagine…then GO
Make her laugh
Don’t make her cry
Tease her senselessly
Before going inside
Rub against her mind
Soothe her aching soul in time
When she gives you her all
Don’t reject it or fold
She laid out her cards
Take her hand & never forget why
She chose to let you inside
Serenade with song
Make your words dance to the notes
Tickle my brain
& tell me some truths
Slide your finger along my spine
If you reach my soul you will find
A delectable demon lives inside
There are no more words
There is no more love
There can be nothing left
No where to move on
Clean the slate of this pain
Wash away all that shame
Step forth from the darkness
Claim a new domain
I basked in the moonlight
So you could see me shine
I bathed in the sun rain
So I could clear my mind
I walked into the deep sea
In the hopes you could feel me
I drowned in an ocean of pleas
There was nothing left with you
That would fulfill me
I was delirious with pain
As the blood trickled & then stained
It was the knife that did the trick
Or was it the hand that plunged it in deep
Either way I knew I had lost it
That little shrivel of sanity had now been tossed
No longer left whole
The wound had bared my soul
The knife skidded along my skin
ordering blood trails follow it.
My eyes latched on
to his wicked smile
before squeezing closed tight
enough to make fireflies appear.
It was a glorious agony
as he dug the blade in deep,
only to purge my mind
of his memory.
I swear it won’t happen again
I swear I couldn’t do what they said
I swear I’ll never believe again
I swear I’ve lost all my heart; it’s just a sham
I swear I can never recover from this
I swear just this once but it’s all amiss
I swear I said
I swear but now I’m dead
There was once
A magical symphony of words
It danced along a dreams edge
& never dared to stop & be free
It caressed a heart n its time of need
It played the notes of pain
Along with the summer breeze
Skidded around the curves & hid in fallen leaves
Until it was lost inside of me
Her words were spellbinding
Softly spoken filled with care
She kissed his forehead
With such reverence
He could not help
But to give in & obey
Her sweet dear Pet
That’s what she called him
& under her spell
He had forever fallen
Summer came & went
Like a day at the beach
Walking in the sand
The sun stayed around
Longer than the clouds
Even shone thru the rain
As drops pelted in a soft refrain
But then the time changed
Fall came with its rage
The sun hid away
& the gray of winter
Came to stay
Time is our greatest enemy
It has stolen all the feelings
All the kisses & dreams
Washed away
With time, tides & the sea
The clock does tick
& echoes thru the thick
Fog that was our love
Faded away now
To live in memories of what was
His words were like bullets
ricocheting through her soul.
They tore through her scars
& forced her blood to curdle.
He had never loved her,
this she had always known.
But she had dreamed
& wished that all this
would lead to more.
My Sins
Are carved in
Deep into my heart
My soul is so scarred
Only soft tissue
Keeps it from tearing apart
My mind is fragmented
Much like the walls
That are my defense
My Will
Is inescapable
And will deliver my redemption
She’s more than lines & curves
She’s more than you deserve
A swirl of emotions & words
A heart that lives in a soft shell
Full of hopes & dreams
Her soul bursting at the seams
She is your nightmare
Wrapped up in your fantasy
My heart was stubborn
It argued with my mind constantly
They bickered back & forth
Giving my soul no rest
Fear had voiced its opinion
Love was completely silent
No rest for the weary
Neither for the wicked
I know now I’ll find no peace
Only in my dreams
Does my voice speak
He was playing a game
Little did he know
She would change her shame
Into fortune & fame
The party was over
The fun & games had ended
She was left alone
With her heart to mend
The time for laughter had passed
Too fast for her to count
Her one chance to be loved
Had flown away like a dove
Lost in my dreams
Or written during
My living fantasy
Where can you be
How does my heart beat?
The Duality of a Woman
Be strong
Be weak
Be confident
Be meek
Speak up
Be reserved
Be aggressive
No submissive
Take care of yourself
WAIT take care of me
Grow a child in your belly
But ONLY if a man gives you permission
Be all you can be
As long as it’s not MORE than me
Hurt me if you please
Make me beg, make me plead
But harm me you may not
I am not to be used
Then forgot
Hearts do not mend from harm
That wound doesn’t close or heal up
Harm doesn’t make a scar
But rather
Breads an incurable disease
Forevermore
The barrier to her heart
Had been breached
And with fresh wounds
It began to seep
Tears of pain
Blood coursing through open veins
And in reality she remained
Broken & bruised
With cries that repeated a long sad refrain
Never again whole
And forever stained
Sifting through the ash
Looking for a diamond
In the trash
Only to get stained
With the soil of pain
Filling her wounds
With old love that was strewn
Reliving memories
That never seem to bloom
He had recruited her
for a lusty affair,
of that she wasn’t aware.
He had done this time & again,
without any concern
of the damaged he kept causing.
He was a sly wicked man
who only desired to do
what he harm he could
just to satisfy his evil mood.
The lie had cut her to the quick
Sliced her heart open
And the blood ran thick
Shock had stolen her emotions
And there was no more room
For meaningless affections
Words had clouded her mind
But the truth she finally did find
And in that loss
She had paid the cost
She had become
A renegade from love
After all the lies & deceit
She walked away
Beat the street with her feet
Rebuilt her walls
Higher than heaven above
Sealed the windows & door
Never again to allow
Her love to reach the shore
There is a moment
When a heart breaks
And the world is just silence
It might’ve been different
If you would’ve just listened
Nightmares & dreams
Both do haunt my sleep
Never knowing which is which
& which shall I keep
Instead I wake
In such misery
Tasked with a day ahead
Full of pain & symmetry
Fake smile upon my face
No one knows but me
Play the good girl
Cause no one ever sees
Always at a loss
My heart & thoughts
Nothing I was once
Nothing now I be
Nothing no one can save
Least of all me
Burdens be gone
Guilt & shame move on
Empty shells do breathe
All though not easily
Tears shed aplenty
No less with no meaning
Drops to the floor
Settled upon the sleeve
Heart beats no more
Nothing retreats
Let the sea
Come take me
Let my soul float
Like a lost lonely boat
Let the tide sweep
Me into the depths of the deep
Let my words fade
Into future days
Let my bones be meat
For the fish of the sea
Let my flesh rot
Because I am naught
Let me die
When the sun meets the sky
the peaks
the valleys
the plateaus
health & maladies
ups & downs
the carousel
goes round & round
love & hate
faults & fate
this is the state
of the living
with or without a mate
surviving the shake
crumbled ground beneath our feet
it’s only what we make
& not how we fake
ghost in a shell
bones with no soul
demons breathe in
as madness descends
the wicked begin
with the first sin
blood on a blade
secrets hidden in shade
no one can run from it
we all know who does it
this reaper does cometh
your heart it will plunder
rip your flesh asunder
when my words fail
the music i do inhale
beauty of the devil
eyes of an angel
her soul is only mangled
from webs that entangle
the eyes reflect the soul
tales that go untold
the clues are always there
if you would but stop
and stare
Along the razor’s edge
She waltzes to the beat
Her footsteps cracking
The earth beneath her feet
Where she was
She’ll never go again
Where she’s going
She’s never been
No candle lights her way
No guide to make her stay
She only goes alone
Singing her own song
Sometimes I’m the fire
Sometimes the gasoline
Sometimes I’m the tide
Sometimes the whole sea
Sometimes I’m the poet
Sometimes I barely read
Sometimes I’m the sun
Sometimes the soft rain
Sometimes I’m a person
Sometimes just a name
Sometimes I don’t speak
Only sing a delicate refrain
in the night
it fell from the sky
landed on my lips
covered my skin
seeped in deep
but when the sun
came out to greet me
it evaporated quickly
leaving me to wish
for a breeze
empress in her own mind
living in fantasies
writing her prose
boxed up in a hole
steeped heavy n her woes
unable to breathe
under such a heavy load
no sun no moon
no stars to hold her scars
trapped in a life
weighted down by her desires
freedom isn’t free
last words to the trees
Play your song
Upon my body
Teach me the notes
Fill me with your symphony
Sketch each chord
Into my memory
Don’t abandon hope
For you lyrics live within me
Once close
Now far apart
One wonders
What was lost
Words went unspoken
Some lessons went untaught
Why this sudden anger
Over something that was naught
Passersby here in life
We both struggled
We both cried
But now the quick reverse
Was it the lines
Was it the verse
Deep thoughts
Rought
Wondering how, why
Why not
Another day down this course
Tantalizing
Teasing
Thinking all is lost
Lines turn to curves
Boundaries unearthed
Her heart pleading to give birth
To a fantasy filled with words
Where sensuality always comes first
Her walls are sky high
All of her bridges have burnt down
There are cracks in the mortar
Where the shells have punished her fort
The windows are broken
The bars are bent
Sunlight doesn’t shine
& the moon is her friend
Nightmares are more pleasant
Than her dreams
& she still breathes
Let the sea & the storm
Wash away the pain of love
Let me gather strength
To walk forth against the wind
Let my soul breathe easy
& my soul be at peace
For it is only me
That fights to be free
She travels alone
Shoes off
Stockings on
Walking to
A distant land
With passions askew
Walking with a wicked smile
Heading down that long mile
Eager to reach
The new world to breach
In her mind
A universe
In her heart
Lived Jupiter
In her eyes
Waves & tide
In her words
LIFE
I placate the masses
Streaming prose of naughty acts
I pacify the meanderers
A warning shot to the philanderers
I appease those in need
Showing they are not alone in the weeds
I assuage the lonely
Conciliate their phobia
I mollify to nullify
Let by gones go by
Sacrifice yourself
Sacrifice your thoughts
Sacrifice all you’ve lost
Sacrifice today
Sacrifice tomorrow
Sacrifice the future you borrow
Sacrifice that love
Sacrifice the pain
Sacrifice all that remains
Sacrifice your heart
Sacrifice what you’ve been taught
Sacrifice all that’s naught
Sanity is insane by nature
Clarity is a bane that un-tethers
Reality precludes fantasies
Love binds unnecessarily
Scars live on forever
Wounds may heal but still sever
We are souls in mere skin shells
Yet hope fuels our fervor
It wasn’t enough
To give my heart or my love
Some things just
Aren’t worth the hurt
Leather
And
Lace
Rough
Yet
Delicate
Strong
But
Weak
Do you see
What
I can be
Can you match my words
Take them beat for beat
Make my mind flutter
And taste just as sweet
Can you bring me to the precipice
Then back in a leap
Would you make my soul sink
Or fill it with that dark need
