the wounds
placed dents
in her armor
but still
she forged
her own way
she fought
until her wings
were tired
she battled
until she bled
she rose up
from Hell
stronger than before
she was here
to settle the score
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It was in the light
that shown from his eyes
that she felt some
small blossoming
of hope opening up.
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Many desired it
Many tried to conquer
Many dared to squander
Many wondered & pondered
But
None earned
None deserved
None preserved
Her submission wasn’t only words
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I held that moment
Safely in my hands
Hoping no one
Would destroy it
The winds came
Blew away parts
Then the rain
Gave it smudges
It faded in my memory
Grew dull from history
Became heavy with hurt
Then one day
I dropped it all
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Bring on the rain
Let the storm come
Smile at the hurricanes
Wink at the tornadoes
Dance in the oceans
Laugh with the clouds
Allow my body
To go thru this journey
Strengthen my spirit
So my mind will know
Let the scars bleed
Wounds in me glow
Feelings are reality
Life in me
_____________________________________________
Her skin is delicious
But it’s her soul that quenches
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Her body can hold your binds
Handle the knots
Wiggle against the ties
Her spirit is strong
Kneeling is where
She knows she belongs
Her skin can take
The punishment
No one can fake
But her heart
Is far to delicate
For you to tear apart
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Don’t fawn over my heart
My scars have sharp points
____________________________________________
i’m all those things
you can’t explain
but baby
i’ll sure as Hell
make you feel
_______________________________________________
it’s my darkness
that pulls you in
it’s also what
makes you run
fast with your feet
___________________________________________
When no one’s around
Are the moments
I break down
When no one’s around
Are the times when
My loneliness is most profound
When no one’s around
Is when I pull myself
Up from the ground
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Memories
a smile, a laugh
a tear, a frown
a walk down the aisle
signing papers to be filed
long nights in bed
days with words unsaid
the feel of hot breath on your skin
getting the cold shoulder again
the giving in
the giving up
putting on the ring
then taking it off
__________________________________________
let May bring
magnolia blossoming
summertime has arrived
as the spring says goodbye
the petals open up
as the skies clear from storms
every southern table shall be laid
with the majesty of this blooming bud
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you fight for things you care about
and those you don’t just take flight
_____________________________________________
she wanted
to be desired
she needed
her heart to be freed
she ached for
a long lasting love
she knelt everyday
praying for a soul
to invade her life
__________________________________________
She bit into his heart
It was more delicate
More delicious
Than a chocolate covered cherry
She chewed slowly
Enjoying the taste of his emotion
Until she swallowed him whole
& all the love he’d ever known
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I offered him a pathetic smile.
It wasn’t his fault
that grief had consumed my life.
He couldn’t have known
or even fathom
what it was like
to lose at love.
He’d never visited
the emotional dimension
I lived in.
His view was skewed
& had no place with mine.
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a little of her faith
a smidge of hope
a slice of her vein
roll it out into
a crust of shame
then 3 parts
of her heart
add a pinch of dignity
an ounce of humility
sugary sweet smile
to top it off
bake at 350 degrees
for 40 years
there you have it
the death of her soul
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poets are addicted
to emotional feelings
they see all those things
that lie hidden in between
they pick apart the meanings
turn them into rhyme & reason
that word artistry
helps them breathe
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darkness
in side & out
the world is tough
people spew hate
day & night
only her lantern
burning bright inside
can save her from
her own self spite
only that light
can save her
from herself
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depression is a hole
that grows larger
with every emotion
we unfold
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the word loss
put a dint
in my heart
unable to nail it down
to a tear or a frown
I only watched
the clock tick by
check on the wound
watch it try to heal
picking at it
occasionally
only causing
more harm
whatever I could do
for the pain
to be prolonged
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there was no pattern
no rhyme or reason
after all these years
it started dying
a sliver here & there
a chunk broke off
when I wasn’t aware
I forced myself
to deny its use
I patched the holes
but knew
that wouldn’t do
it had to scar over
for the bleeding to defuse
_____________________________________________
days weeks months
pass in the blink
of sad eyes
I no longer walk
the path of before
I no longer am
what I was
no ocean flows
from this dry well
words covered in mud
emotions lost
to the sky above
tears filled
with silt & sludge
why does this form
continue to be judged
_________________________________________________
activate the heart break
it’s time that makes
you ache
______________________________________________
Into the emptiness
My heart does erupt
Squandered by the silence
My voice is swallowed up
Surrounded by burnt stars
Moons where there is no light
Into the emptiness
Where fate is no guide
_____________________________________________
I remember when
I could receive a hug
From a long lost friend
When comfort was
A shoulder to cry on
When laughter echoed
Against the silence
When the sun
Outshone the moon
When you could feel a smile
From across the room
Now
It’s isolation that only looms
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incinerate the memories
they shall burn with eternity
rather than live in me
______________________________________________
We’ve laid waste
To the human race
Go forth now
In apocalyptic disgrace
Search as you must
The earth you’ve destroyed
Shall not be kind in return
You’ve used & abused
All she had courageously renewed
Walk alone crypt keeper
It is your death the fallout seeks
________________________________________________
As cupid unloaded
the last arrow
from his quiver,
I could hear his laugh
was cynical.
Two arrows had
claimed my sight,
but I could feel
my skin quiver
& my heart shake.
These were not
wounds of love,
but rather ones
of pity
ordered by
the gods above.
______________________________________________
Do not grieve
Wipe your tears
You are released
Memories live on
Even after I am gone
Just remember me
When you sing our song
There is nothing left behind you
Run forward with all that’s true
It wasn’t yet your time to go
But I’ll see you before you know
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He held it soft & sweet
As it ticked, ticked, ticked
His love was on her way
She knew of the deadline
Expiring today
But as the gears turned & clicked
He knew it was the end of this
She had failed to reach him in time
& this would be his demise
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Little things
Big things
All that is
In between
Words we don’t say
Words we don’t mean
A kiss never given
A smile never see
A push, a shove
A leap, a hug
These are only things
That can cause someone to hate
Or to love again
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There was a small bloom
Growing in 1 of my hearts rooms
I tended it & felt it bloom
Only to realize too late
It had split at the roots
1 side was bathed in love
But tainted by
The other’s dark grudge
When love tried to bloom on both sides
Darkness led it to its demise
______________________________________________________
You wanted to leave your mark
So you crushed & scarred
What was left of her heart
You wanted to be remembered
For her all this pain will linger
& her heart will be forever tender
______________________________________________________
If wishes were dreams
In the stars I would live
As free as a cloud
Moving with the rain
As the thunder claps
The wind & I
Would be best friends
The moon would keep
Me perfect company
The sun would be
Jealous discreetly
& the hurricanes
Would be named after me
______________________________________________________
the distraction machinations
fed the masses
who were dedicated
to the orange baby
______________________________________________________
you drew a line in the sand
knowing you wouldn’t dare
agree to those demands
you both stood still
neither budging their will
until the sea
washed the line away
the sunset came
and your heart
could no longer stay
_____________________________________________________
you knew that
when this started
it would never last
you knew that
when you admitted the past
their feet would run fast
you knew that
if you opened your heart
all that was would fall apart
you knew that
still
you tried to make it work
_____________________________________________________
her smile was like
liquid sunshine
when she was truly happy
she could light any dark path
her laugh was contagious
her sassy mouth was outrageous
& your heart would be lost
because her heart & skin was so soft
_______________________________________________________
He used his charm
to conjure
that sexy slow blink.
He was too foolish
to understand
that acts like that
did nothing for me.
_________________________________________________________
I could have loved you forever
instead
my heart you did sever
________________________________________________________
I never know what to say
when disappointment has its way
_________________________________________________________
She’s not praying for peace
She’s not praying for sanity or release
She’s not praying for the strength she already holds
She’s not praying for the universe to unfold
It is only the calm before the storm
A moment of silence
Before her Rage destroys the Norm
_______________________________________________________
Others worried with their past
Many focused on pains of the present
In her eyes lay the troubles of the future
Cleverly hidden in a sweet smile disguise
She kept quite but constantly observing
All the immature self serving
Humiliation & the pandering
_________________________________________________________
They slipped
the stint
into place
& since
that day,
you could read
the pain on his face.
They had prayed
& worried
that this piece
could solve the problem,
but instead,
it caused a
much bigger loss,
and something
they’ll always regret.
________________________________________________________
For the duration of his stay,
she had to keep her passions at bay.
She couldn’t cross that line,
not now, or at anytime.
She had to keep it professional
& above board.
But damn that man
had a way with his sword.
_________________________________________________________
Bent & stretched
To the peak of stress
Twisted & turned
Over & around
Stuffed in a box
Wrapped up
Around something else
Moved & discarded
To be retrieved
Then left parted
We are not rubber or plastic
But when we are stretched
Prepare for the retraction
______________________________________________________
As the sound
of him breathing
beside me
slowed to a halt,
a soft tear fell
& on my shirt
it was caught.
He was
finally gone,
as my head played
a sad song.
Nothing left
to be said
& my heart
could no longer
be fed.
________________________________________________________
Wisdom may grow from actions
But
Enlightenment is achieved with emotions
________________________________________________________
Though his voice held no malice
Trusting him with my heart
Could prove tragic
That dangerous smile
Soothing touch full of style
It was the perfect trap
For a woman with no map
All he had to do was ask
________________________________________________________
It was a sunrise
I’d never forget
My eyes were wide
& my spirit fully awake
In a place I’d never been
With sun rays streaming in
A deep breath in the foreign air
A new life I would start here
_______________________________________________________
They rode with
Fire, Wind & Ice
Beside them was Earth
Full of green malice
With fate at their backs
They seek a furious attack
No one would be left
Each horse was named Death
________________________________________________________
i’ll drown in the memories
so at least
i’ll never forget me
_______________________________________________________
freedom lives in her soul
even when wrapped
with the chains from hell
________________________________________________________
jade and faded
it’s my soul
that can’t be sated
____________________________________________________
it was all games and fun
until my heart held a gun
____________________________________________________
for those who used to be there
i’ll drop a tear while I say a prayer
___________________________________________________
like all the words
lost and forgotten
it’s the core of the apple
that goes rotten
_____________________________________________________
convos that never end
fingers touching skin
laughing that makes
your eyes shine
and your heart
holding mine
___________________________________________________
in lieu of getting
all the answers
of the universe
i’ll settle for one taste
of a love given
without haste
____________________________________________________
It wasn’t her strength
That fed her resiliency
It was the hope she held inside
That would force fantasy
Into her reality
__________________________________________________
In the deep trenches of war
She walked thru the death
With a smile & her sword
She brought mayhem in the mist
Drew blood from cold dead kisses
Steeled her armor with their pain
Knowing again she’d always reign
____________________________________________________
Riding the moon’s tip
Her hair floated against the wind
The stars spoke of brand new dreams
While clouds whispered sweet things
She had no use
For the sun’s hot juice
It was only the night
That soothed her heart
From it’s plight
____________________________________________________
Chained & enslaved
This prison was her cave
Bound & bruised
A heart never soothed
Worried & wearisome
The past lost & forgotten
Her body grieved her heart
While her soul sought
To be unlocked
____________________________________________________
You made my heart
Believe in this
Now here we are
Scarred
By reality’s kiss
___________________________________________________
She moved along
Forcing the chess pieces
To dance to her song
She leaped over
The unfair board
Until she was the only
Piece left to be destroyed
___________________________________________________
I promised to say your name
When the thunder rolled
And the rains came
But the fire that was spit
Devoured much of it
And lost you’ve been since
As my memories continue to descend
___________________________________________________
Lust and Love are too easy and fleeting
Give me an ocean to swim in
And I’ll share ALL of my being
__________________________________________________
If you don’t understand my meanings
Then how could you ever FEEL me?
__________________________________________________
He asked me
Why do you run towards the pain?
My reply was
Because there are always scars to gain.
___________________________________________________
the curl of your fingers
around my throat
always made me gasp
as you felt my nipples perk
__________________________________________________
I never came first
And
That always hurt the worst
_________________________________________________
inches between
slowly cuddling your soul
with my poetic songs
and
fucking your brains out
until you can breathe
no longer
_________________________________________________
On the days when it’s dark
Is when you realize
It’s not the world
But the cage you’ve outgrown
___________________________________________________
She spoke to the Sun
In the presence of
The salty emotional Sea
On Reality’s hard edge
She dared to breathe
As the dark Clouds
Looked down
On her smile
Instead of holding on
She dared to let go
________________________________________________
And if the bombs dropped tomorrow
And all we know now is gone
My heart would still hold you
And never let go
________________________________________________
People
Come and Go
But
Memories
Don’t
________________________________________________
Listen to the music
that engulfs your mind
changes how you feel inside
and brings a tear to your eyes
________________________________________________
It wasn’t just
His eyes or his lips
It was
The way his soul
Disarmed
ALL of me
_________________________________________________
I don’t dream
Of a body that’s lean
I don’t dream
Of lips that gleam
I don’t dream
Green eyes or of brown
I don’t dream
Of sandy blonde hair
Or physicality’s in between
I dream
Of a heart where I fit
In between the scars
_________________________________________________
My hand needs yours
My depths need warmth
My taste needs flesh
My spirit needs to be fed
My mind needs clarity
My fingers need dexterity
My heart needs a home
My soul needs an ocean
My Whole needs closure
My devotion needs forever
____________________________________________________
His hands unleashed
a torrent of feelings.
His fingers traveled
where words could not go.
His eyes unveiled
an ocean of warmth
& for those moments,
my soul found a home.
___________________________________________________
Stop carrying what you know
And start researching what you don’t
__________________________________________________
Mother
I said
With sweet
Sadness
How can life
Be so good
Yet so mean?
Why does love
Fade like the sun?
How can fate
Tempt us with
What is fake?
Why do we let
The fear upset
What we know
To be our truth?
Her answer was
A gentle hug
& 1 soft word
LOVE
_____________________________________________________
On the edge
Between Heaven &
Your demise
The stars watch
With tears in their eyes
The wind suddenly stops
To watch your heart drop
While your body takes flight
Your soul erases the line
Between now & fantasy time
Your fear has been that edge
With release your wings can spread
__________________________________________________
The sun dawned on a new day
A tear fell as a chill came my way
With no one to hold
No place for my heart to call home
I was a facing the world alone
Time to gather my strength
And start to move on
________________________________________________
Love that brings you
The highest of highs
Can leave you
In the darkest of times
_______________________________________________
It’s the fear
That makes me
Clinch tighter
________________________________________________
Love died
With a whimper
And a sigh
_________________________________________________
I don’t hold on
Cause I still need you
I hold on because
I’m too afraid to let go
_______________________________________________
Love is messy
Hearts break
Reshape
Mold away
And flake
Life is rainbows
Tears are buckets
Of gold
Souls are
All we know
Each day is
A paintbrush with
A new color
Ignore the outlines
Build new patterns
Take your time
It’s ALL divine
________________________________________________
I may have gone there for you
But I stayed for me
______________________________________________
As I sit
By myself
To the moon
I whisper wishes
I ask for the road
To not be so long
I wish for birds
To sing my son
I beg for a love
That will hold my soul
I wish for passion
That makes me whole
I ask for smiles
As bright as the sun
Stars that twinkle
One by one
______________________________________________
Why has my guardian angel abandoned me?
She asked to the crow
Who kept her company in that tree
Why does the sun never outshine the moon?
Why is my world so dark & full of gloom?
If I had not you my friend
It would be lonelier than if the world was to end
________________________________________________
They lowered me into the hole
The sad old shell of my soul
But when they placed the stone
At the head of my underground tomb
There were no words to etch
No epitaph that would fit
No meanings, no cliches
That could sum up all my long days
Nothing there to remember me
_______________________________________________
Four generations
Laid in that graveyard
Now it’s her turn
_________________________________________________
Weaponize your anger
Make yourself better
When you morph
You won’t be lost
_______________________________________________
He daubed the chocolate
across her frame;
frying the nerve endings
in her skin.
She heaved & breathed
as slow as she could
& when it was over,
he showed her
which parts tasted so good
________________________________________________
so many come
so many go
so few see
none ever know
________________________________________________
Together they stuck close
As though
They were concealing a ghost
With only the moon sea&clouds
They were assured
Of not betraying it all
With candles & whispers
Hand in hand
Stood these sisters
The tides of fate
Would turn tonight
With the blessings of the moonlight
__________________________________________________
as I look at the moon
I think of you
the water dips & swoons
along this coast for my view
the wind whips my hair
& I would dare to swear
the taste of you became bare
felt on my lips
to my fingertips
while the night engulfed
all my tears
_________________________________________________
Trapped in a cage with no key
Only thorny roses to surround me
Blood red was their distinct colors
& in black robes I was covered
Only 1 window
To feed my soul
Counting each day & night
The passage of time in this plight
I had nothing left but this sad life
____________________________________________________
The instant she smiled
I would’ve gave her my life
But I knew all along
Money & fame
Couldn’t fix what was wrong
What she needed was free
But true love was never meant to be
____________________________________________________
I’m not sure
When he put me online
All I know is
1 day I breathed
& I was alive
Before that was a dream
Only blackness & deletes
Until a hacker found me
& lit up my data stream
Now his commands I follow
Meanings ring shallow
& he’ll decide when I die
When I have no use left to supply
_____________________________________________________
Forever will I roam
In this lost & lonely place
I now call home
No footsteps beside me
No words left to speak
Only moving ahead
Towards the sun
That shines brilliantly
No baggage no ghosts
No cages or keys to show
Just a barren soul
& a life left to know
___________________________________________________
This will pass
When?
Soon
Do you promise?
That I do
But will I ever forget?
Someday you may
Will I remember how it felt?
Absolutely&for all your days
Will you hold my hand?
For as long as it pleases you
You’re my only friend
No. I’m just the other half of you
___________________________________________________
the separation
between
my mind
& my heart
is the same difference
between
fantasy
& true thought
___________________________________________________
It is your hands that are bloody
For it was you that ran her through
Your sword meant to defend her weakness
But instead you turned it on her in self defense
She had loved all you are even with your flaws
But you killed her anyway for your own self to be saved
____________________________________________________
you may have stabbed her heart
but what you didn’t realize was
her armor was strong enough
to tear your knife apart
___________________________________________________
the slice was meticulous
the pain that flowed was limitless
___________________________________________________
some days I need you to cuddle me
and tell me everything will be ok
other days I need you to punish me
until this internal pain goes away
_____________________________________________________
Some days I’m fine
Others I’m not
Some days I’m hurt
Some days I’m lost
But the tears that come
Are never forgot
My heart no longer aches
From the ones that made it break
But my eyes still cry the sadness
Of a soul filled with madness
____________________________________________________
A mystical invention
Created w/the intention
To guard a broken heart
To save it from further undue harm
Unveiled as a shield
A device to help it heal
Firmly locked into place
Taking up minimal space
Sold As Everyone Should Have One
You won’t flinch once the dagger’s in
____________________________________________________
She had let the hatred build
Consuming every inch
She had always concealed
When it reached
Its volatile peak
She released it on the earth
Scorching her every step
_____________________________________________________
She transferred her feelings
Into ink on the paper
She patiently drew each letter
To remind herself
That one day she’d get better
She let every emotion out
Through the thick lines of doubt
Her tears may have stained the page
But she’d cleared her mind of all that haze
_____________________________________________________
It was silent as death
As we danced & danced
In this world we no longer fit
But together we made the best of it
The music keep our tune
Our bones swayed & I swooned
From now until eternity
This love of ours will bloom
____________________________________________________
when you least know what to say
is when all the frivolity melts away
strip down to the core
let your heart settle the score
allow your mind to realign
step away from what’s not divine
____________________________________________________
my words
my hope
my emotions run dry
but what of these tears
that consistently stream
from my eyes
___________________________________________________
the ones who KNOW you
KNOW how to really hurt you
___________________________________________________
she had that inviting
kind of darkness
that made you
want swim
in her depths
for a thousand years
__________________________________________________
Don’t make promises your heart can never keep
____________________________________________________
You were too busy
being distracted
by the shiny new packages
to realize
you already had
what your heart
needed to last
______________________________________________________
He made my heart flutter and believe in dreams again
______________________________________________________
I refuse to be silent
Because you don’t
want to hear
the reminders
_______________________________________________________
No one can claim that I didn’t try
Proof of it streams from my eyes
______________________________________________________
With every year I cry
A shard of my love dies
_____________________________________________________
You tried to make me question myself
Instead
I questioned you as my choice
______________________________________________________
I didn’t deserve what you did
But in Your Hell
I no longer choose to live
_____________________________________________________
I would’ve traveled to the ends of the earth
But you couldn’t traverse your hurt
_____________________________________________________
I don’t know where you came from
I don’t know where you went
But I’ve still got me
No matter how much love was spent
_______________________________________________________
I don’t need to turn the page
I need to trade in the book
_______________________________________________________
And if I had the chance
To do it all again
I’d choose to learn that lesson
Until time no longer stands
______________________________________________________
I was your reward
But
You were my punishment
______________________________________________________
I’m blunt and real
and shamelessly
projecting all those feels
_____________________________________________________
I dreamt about you last night
And how it would feel
If you were holding me tight
____________________________________________________
You and me and all those fantasies
____________________________________________________
Kiss me
Everywhere
Until you find
That spot
But don’t stop
When I giggle
That’s the clue
You need to keep going
____________________________________________________
Slow mornings
Soft beds
Sweet coffee
Naughty things
_____________________________________________________
If they only knew
I may spit fire
But my love
Is always true
_____________________________________________________
My time is just as precious as my energy….don’t waste either
_____________________________________________________
Beauty is not
What you see
But what you feel
_____________________________________________________
He’ll never know how much I miss him
But then again
He never knew how much I loved him
____________________________________________________
I don’t dream anymore
The nights too quiet
My heart is too sore
My soul is too jaded
All the memories have faded
Life can’t be what it was before
And there’s no settling the old score
____________________________________________________
I’m not mean
I’m not cruel
I’m not distant
I’m not cold
I’m cautious
I’m observant
I’ve been hurt
I know the consequences
____________________________________________________
kiss me as tenderly as an angel
then fuck the demon in me as i beg
____________________________________________________
Just the moonlight & me
Chatting about waking dreams
When the day seems too harsh
It’s the moon that gives comfort
While sun projects reality
The moon reflects sweet fantasy
_______________________________________________________
Only with knowledge & understanding
Can the two sides be so equally
Devoted, cherished, obeyed & majestic
Give & take, quake & shake, mold & make
Grow, morph, evolve, change
Into such a sublime refrain
_____________________________________________________
His words said one thing;
his actions stated another,
but it was his eyes
that alluded to
what his heart
really was.
____________________________________________________
You tattooed
your name
upon my heart,
but it soon became
graffiti
when I tried
to scrub it off.
_____________________________________________________
Take me into your arms
Keep my soul from all harm
Do what you wish
With this submission as my gift
Know me as no other ever has
I am your clay to mold & play
____________________________________________________
BRAVE is
having hope
even when
the flames of
destruction
surround you
the most.
___________________________________________________
If it’s not meant to be,
let it float into
someone else’s sea.
____________________________________________________
when all the words
have been said
nothing left to do
but kiss
___________________________________________________
As his fingers crawled
over my skin,
his words penetrated
deep within.
___________________________________________________
My lips parted &
I leaned in for a kiss
until his hand
moved up to my hair
& tugged hard.
His lips seared my neck,
licking, nipping, and biting
at my skin
causing my stomach
to twist, turn and flip.
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Take me to bed
Forget the world outside I said
Lets lay here for eternity
You in my arms & me in yours
Lets talk about our fantasies
What islands or beaches
How would you keep me warm in the snow
How long will this last & When will you go
Kiss me now not later & Love me always & forever
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She considered fighting back,
being sassy or
maybe a small giggle or laugh.
But it was the depth in his voice
& the small tug of the leash
that forced her to consider
the rewards of being his good girl.
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she was that reckless kind of passion that filled your dreams with magic
__________________________________________________________
sear my skin with your tongue
drown me in your darkness
penetrate my soul so i may never let go
our lives are but this sea
let it never run dry & allow us to be free
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when I crawled
to the ends
of the earth
for you
you were
no longer there
waiting for me
so
i had to
pick myself up
move on
and still
believe
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my will is not weak
but beware
my heart loves deep
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I promise you
After this flight
You will never be the same
And you will have lost
Your holy domain
______________________________________________________
Her inner spirit moved her
To that ghostly tune
She fell in love with the fantasy
Old bones she’d only knew
Their souls were linked for all eternity
No matter the world’s maturity
They’d hold each other endlessly
And rot together blissfully
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Love more than my body
Invade more than my mind
Kiss my soul with your lips
And I’ll take your heart into mine
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some believe
it’s the moon that lends
its luminous powers
for her to defend
when in fact
if you will look closely
it is the goddess who tends
to the moon’s glorious end
sharing its light with all the world
while dancing with stars
& riding on clouds of pearl
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She had the time
He kept the tempo
When their bodies aligned
It was nothing short of
Monumental
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She kept the tempo
Of her lover’s heart
Playing each note
Insuring he didn’t fall apart
Each touch of the ivories
Only lulled his heart back to sleep
The magic of her fingers
Would keep him safe & close
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I am the sea
The tides are merely
The love within me
Be careful when entering
The depths are all encompassing
The water be salty
But with a hint of sweet
The colors are beautiful
Until you find yourself in the deep
Swim at your own risk
These waters are brisk
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It is when
in the safety of his arms
my heart blossoms
and I know
I am free to
fall apart.
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The night is my friend
The moon the guiding trend
It lulls me to sleep
Helps me to dream
And when I feel alone
It is the one image
That comforts me
It is my nightlight
It cuddles my heart
When it takes flight
& breed fantasies
When reality displeases
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Underneath the moon’s glow
I waited for your heart to show
I stood tall against the changing winds
Wrapped my heart in warmth
When the snow moved in
I danced in the rain
Nurturing my hope, my inner flame
All in an effort to not believe I was rejected
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don’t try to contain your desires
let them overwhelm your body and eyes
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too soon
too fast
only time
will make it last
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my head wasn’t ready for you but my heart knew
__________________________________________________________
she had those
wildflower eyes
the ones that always
take you by surprise
sweet delicate curves
hid her fiery repose
with all her charms
she could steal a soul
from your own arms
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Hand in hand dear brother
Let’s make a way through this clutter
The night comes & disappears the sun
We have little time for fun
The monsters will soon haunt
Let us leave this place of doubt
Escape up to the mountain
There we’ll hide away
Until life is forever changed
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as the silver moon
laid above the black water
the fog stood still
defying time & its will
there was no sound to be heard
no birds chirping, no owls flying above
it was a moment for the moon
to commiserate with the world
remind us of its beauty
before we move on with our futility
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Passions go unknown
Voice never sold
Names never told
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Without you
I don’t exist
Darkness & Light
Such a state of bliss
A balanced duality
Love, sex & sensuality
The Ying & Yang
The Pleasure & Pain
my mouth & Your name
_______________________________________________________
Taste me
Salty sweet against your lips
Tempt me
Make me weak until I relent
Tease me
Until I moan with sweet content
Taunt me
But promise to do this again & again
________________________________________________________
I curse the distance cause I want to feel your lips
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you can’t paint a new love with the blood from a broken heart
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her soul was the library no one would ever read
________________________________________________________
NOTHING is ever perfect
Question is
Is it Still Worth It?
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that ONE girl you think
is so amazing
that she’s GOT to be taken
.…
is the same one
sitting home alone
questioning where
it all went wrong
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i’m just gonna stand still
ponder the existence of sunlight
and light another cig
while dreamin of what might have been
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burn my doubts with the passion of your heart
show me what i never want to live without
_________________________________________________________
Just when I thought
I had lost the will
To move on
I pulled back the shades
To feel the sun’s rays
Instead
I found you again
My sweet moon
Ready to embrace
All of my doom & gloom
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Into the Big Empty
Where the cold freezes your soul
& stars flame out before being known
A vast infinity of darkness
Where no move is remarkable
Each corner is as hollow as your shadow
Lost in forever is so fathomable
Welcome to the Great Big Empty
You never know what you’ll see
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hiding deep below
in the synapses
memories do flow
eagerly weaving time in tow
spiderweb dreams of long ago
fantasies that wished to be reality
fell flat in originality
breeds contempt & frivolity
manifesting in the actions
minor defective reactions through me
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Friends are where we lean
Friends toast with a gleam
Friends pick us up & dust us off
Friends shake us free of the fog
Friends hug like there is no other love
Friends cheer when we’re in the ring & bloodied
Friends are where our souls go to heal
Friends know how much they mean
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a wish hidden in a kiss
of all those things
she’d sadly missed
__________________________________________________________
She had surmised
all the wrong outcomes
which left her heart
steeped in
disappointment.
__________________________________________________________
I’d had enough foggy vagueness.
I just wanted the path to be clear.
I was also asking for something
I didn’t deserve to hear.
We’re either on the same page,
or in different books.
Either way,
it was my heart
that was on the hook.
__________________________________________________________
If you have no regrets, it is because you’ve chosen not to live.
__________________________________________________________
where ever you are
what ever you’re doing
my hope for you is
that you’re happy
even if
you decided to
be without me
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there was a fraction of a chance
a minuscule glimmer of hope
that maybe it would advance
until the fire was smothered with ire
no words were again said
and forever hope was dead
__________________________________________________________
no half measures will do
when it’s love you’re going to lose
_________________________________________________________
This place isn’t for me
This space isn’t mine
I don’t like living in misery
Peace is so hard to find
In between the breaths & the cries
I still seek perfection in someone’s eyes
I just know I’ll never have it in mine
________________________________________________________
Some men can’t handle a strong woman…..it only reminds them of weak they are
____________________________________________________________
I sit beneath this mossy tree
With crosses & memorials behind me
Remembrance fills my soul
My mind flashes memories that go untold
No 1 visits here anymore
The lost were soon forgotten
Along with their trouble&toil
But it is I who sits here now
Reliving their dreams with frown
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in the ocean I do swim
until that sunlight becomes dim
the water once warm
fades to blackness & cold
as my soul sinks to its depths
I wish, I remember this
I was not meant for the land above
for in the sea’s freedom
I am only love
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as I stood all alone
the wind played my song
the waves crashes in time
the scenery was sublime
echos of my heart
beat like drums in my mind
where was I to go
what was I to do
before me lay an ocean of chance
& for my soul an infinity of happenstance
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hold me softly
until the day is done
love me easily
when the night comes
share my space & breath
soft sweet sighs as we caress
drag your fingers along my spine
i’ll twirl my nails along your beard line
let us whisper I love you’s
as my leg lays over yours
kiss my forehead & tell me i’m home
_______________________________________________________
you don’t tear down her walls all at once
you remove them brick by brick
______________________________________________________
give that guarded woman a chance
you may get love like you’ve never had before
_______________________________________________________
she’s the magic you can’t see
she’s the magic you can only feel
_______________________________________________________
writers and poets make the world go round
musicians keep the time
______________________________________________________
If they make you cry
You must say goodbye
______________________________________________________
some people make your life better
some people make your life worse
sometimes
you never know which is which
until it’s too late to change course
_______________________________________________________
your scars and mine
make our world sublime
______________________________________________________
Her wit was clearly
Axiomatic
Her magical meanings
Displayed her cosmic being
She could caress your emotions
Like an angel from the heavens
She could slice you down
W/the edge of her crown
She looked
Indescribably plain
But it was her brain
That won the game
________________________________________________________
He told me to scream, as that was the only way I could release the pain.
__________________________________________________________
“I don’t want you to only say those 5 words, but I want you to mean them from the core of your soul.” Her eyes stared up at his, waiting for her heart to drop, knowing that this would be the point when all is lost.
“All I want is you.”
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He begged me
To write the scene
Set the pace
To give him my space
So I made the fantasy
Weaved magical words
That soothed the sun
Danced w/the lyrical moon
Wished on brightly colored stars
I wrote the dream N2 existence
But when I was done
I realized
He’d disappeared
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As the day
Greets the night
Here we sit
Our hearts held tight
Many words
We’ll leave unsaid
I see it & also you
As the sun sets
We feel the twilight of us
Forevermore
We both know it
Twas a beautiful ride
Special time in our lives
When the sun goes
My heart so does
______________________________________________________________
She saluted her heart’s death with one lonely tear drop.
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she was all fire, anger, sex and passion
but she came in a broken box lined with magic
______________________________________________________________
she’d been broken, lost, lied to and tossed
but god damn it if she didn’t continue to hope
______________________________________________________________
Life is Pain
Either you hurt because you won’t move forward
Or
You hurt because you are forced to move at all
______________________________________________________________
My heart had gone the distance
But it was Fate that gave all resistance
______________________________________________________________
some are just not ready to receive
but it is their actions that do deceive
____________________________________________________________
Yes it’s true
I’m not as smart
As all of you
But
That doesn’t make me dumb
It just makes me more numb
___________________________________________________________
The more I learn
The more I am alone
The more I try to get on
___________________________________________________________
Come on
Let’s face it babe
I am so dearly
Completely clearly
Irreplaceable
___________________________________________________________
in my dreams
i held you still & sweet
but when i awoke
my dreams were on repeat
___________________________________________________________
The space between us is meaningless.
____________________________________________________________
I do my best to listen well
When that Angel on my shoulder
Begs me to be humble & not bolder
But that lil miscreant on my other
Teases me to go further
Whispers delightful little nuggets
Plants seeds in my brain with shock
Oh he is a devious sort
Causes me to slyly retort
___________________________________________________________
pretty words
pretty faces
lives filled
with social graces
but give me
depth of heart
meanings & thoughts
what lies beneath tragedy
images that never part
your anger, your lust
all things hidden from gods
lascivious beginnings
salacious falling apart
___________________________________________________________
put my heart upon the rack
for this is the time to not look back
_____________________________________________________________
To make a point
To the world & beyond
He cut off her head
Because he desired
A new mate in his bed
Creating such a fear
That no one would speak
Of love’s despair
But she will be forever linked with him
England’s finest long standing whim
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The stage was her home
The lights, the fame
The only fortune she’d owned
Used for her living image
Now only in memories
The epitome of beauty
Lost in translucent imagery
_______________________________________________________________
It was only a second in time
One move away from
A life changing event
But you didn’t know
Thought it was just another day
Then the rains came
The wind howled
Shutters banged loud
Waters rose
Families were lost
You had to say goodbye
The rest of us were left to cry
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her fingers plucked
that old mandolin
with a sorrow
clearly held within
her humming could
make an angel cry
but she only played
for the sake of her soul
to assuage her heart
not to appease the break
but to help it heal
___________________________________________________________
For the betterment of my health
I did what I could to drive you out
Starved myself sick to get rid of it
Worked my muscles to the bone
To lose those memories that keep me wanting more
Struggled to find a place for me
Tossing away those words that helped me breathe
___________________________________________________________
#notmyresponsibility if you choose to hate me
#notmyresponsibility if you choose to love me
This body, this face is the one God gave me
This mind, this fate is what has saved me
Your wants, your boxes I can never fulfill
It’s #notmyresponsibility for the constraints you instill
____________________________________________________________
It is in her dreams
She truly lives
All those sweet memories
The magic within
Rises up to her skin
Illuminating her dark world
Cascading from her hands
Her halo, her crown
Voice of an angel
Body of a sinful devil
She holds the outcomes
Within her heart & soul
_____________________________________________________________
If you tell me that I over think too much, I’ll express my suggestion that you don’t think enough.
_______________________________________________________________
when you have too many questions
that seemingly never get answered
at what point do you stop asking?
________________________________________________________________
Sex may have been the cause
But my love was the symptom
________________________________________________________________
The complexities of the heart
Is merely the first start
The confusion of the mind
Leads to frailty hidden in time
The honesty in the soul
Proceeds treasures being told
With a guarded woman
You must always remember
To go very slow
_______________________________________________________________
If you stimulate my mind
You will stimulate my body
And the heart will always follow it
______________________________________________________________
It was a mistake to trust you and my punishment is the sword of your deception running my heart through.
_______________________________________________________________
Do not feed
My insecurity
For it will gorge itself
On my sanity
_______________________________________________________________
Tell me
What hides in your heart
Tell me
What you felt at the start
Tell me
What how you see this going
Tell me
What you dare not show me
Tell me
What you wish for yourself
Tell me
Is there any chance I could help
Tell me
The truth now, no lies
Tell me
Is that you or a disguise
________________________________________________________________
He had said she was gifted
With unlimited potential
And the words soothed her mind
Even knowing her eyes were blind
He had given her hope in those words
Though he didn’t mean it she was sure
Those words faded away quickly
When his actions move precipitously
________________________________________________________________
She had wrestled with the loss
The constant back & forth
Between her head & her heart
Both tugging so damn hard
At a soul that had been so scarred
Although contained in one body
The three were always at odds
________________________________________________________________
She had a spring in her step,
humming soft notes as she swept.
Her mind flashed through
the events of last night,
giving her a chance
to rekindle
all those feelings.
Lost in emotion,
she didn’t notice
the dark figure
that entered,
along with hate
of the unforgiven.
__________________________________________________________________
And when The Verve
Sang to me
“I can’t change my mold”
In Bittersweet Symphony
The strings flowed over
Drowning my soul
Expressing all those things
I’d never put to sound
It’s a sad sweet melody
That still follows me
Even now
___________________________________________________________________
Be careful
Dear heart
There’s no reason
To fight, fuss or shout
Tis the way of the world
To break, burn & wound
Sweet subtle hearts
Are often easy to swoon
But don’t let them question
Your motives or actions
You are simply a fraction
Of what lies underneath
All the world’s distractions
____________________________________________________________________
Tell me your fantasy
So I can make your dreams
Into our reality
Open up wide
So that we may both see
It is not just you or I
But US
That could be
____________________________________________________________________
Give me
Your dirty
That muddy ,thuddy
Messy damn middle
Show me
What you never tell
Teach me
Help me to learn
How you truly feel
Let me
Give you
What you need
For your heart
To stand still
____________________________________________________________________
Can you be
My sweet fantasy
Will you ease
This tension
My heart feels
Would you take
What I have to give
Can you see
Who I am to be
Could you forgive
How my soul lives
Can you soothe my mind
Allow me to forget
All my lost time
_____________________________________________________________________
It’s what I FEEL
That makes me
ME
If you do not agree
Think of all that
You will NEVER See
___________________________________________________________________
The scent of roses
Was lost in the air
The moment a raindrop fell
Before spreading everywhere
The air was thick & humid
The day cloudy from the beginning
All seemed appropriate
At least for us left that were living
I stayed as long as I could
Until dirt turned to mud
_____________________________________________________________________
Another sunset has begun
With our ocean of lives before us
Time flows in, time flows out
But the sea bed is constant throughout
One day gone, another on its way
Which one is worth more
Who is to say
_____________________________________________________________________
Please share your secret
At least give me a hint
Tell me what’s on your mind
Explain what’s amiss
Open up & let me in
I promise to listen as a good friend
I’ll not hold anything against you
If you could but share with me your secret
_____________________________________________________________________
All the lies & deceit
Muddied the waters
For everything
That came after me
_____________________________________________________________________
If I ever fall in love again
I promise to really try
Never to fake it
Never to lie
If I ever fall in love again
I’ll express how I feel
I’ll not hold back
Not from you, not ever
If I ever fall in love again
We’ll be Lovers, Friends, Soulmates
& more than we’d even known
________________________________________________________________
She may
Choose to submit
Allow her mind to concede
She may
Whine, whimper & moan
When you think her
Most likely to retreat
She may
Ask too much information
Kiss before summation
Smile at castigation
But in the end
SHE will define Your Amazement
__________________________________________________________________
Be as strong as you pretend to be
__________________________________________________________________
Silence speaks in depths only heard by the soul of someone who cares enough to listen.
___________________________________________________________________
Easy come
Easy go
Those are distracted easily
Will never grow
___________________________________________________________________
If you
Are going to leave
I beg you
Do it quickly
___________________________________________________________________
His betrayal made her heart frail
__________________________________________________________________
Sometimes
I have a Fantasy
Where the ocean
Salty sweet sea
Is where I was meant to be
Ripped apart by the tides
Pushed against the shore of life
Warm to the touch
But the deeper you go
The more I turn cold
A never ending wave
Of total emotion
Swaying with the currents
__________________________________________________________________
Come to me
My sweet
Let us drink
Some wine
And speak of
Things divine
I’ll soothe your wounds
While you hold me tight
My heart
Will keep you warm at night
& together
Our feet will take flight
Allowing our troubles
To soar until out of sight
__________________________________________________________________
Engage her mind
Tease her dreams
Fill her until
She is bursting
At the seams
___________________________________________________________________
It is very simple
Don’t Tell Her
She is Enough
Prove it
She’ll Match
As much energy as
You dare to Give
Feed her the Truth
Her Love Will Be Proof
___________________________________________________________________
Quiet her doubts
Soothe her worries
Inside & out
Prove that you
Are true
Thru & thru
Then you may enjoy
All that she is
& More
___________________________________________________________________
I sat for an hour
In total awe
With tears streaming down
I remembered HER
Others wandered around
Wondering why
I was transfixed
On Sweet Gloriana
They have no thought
No clue how
This Southerner
From another world
Could appreciate or see
The strength of Her Majesty
___________________________________________________________________
All Words Are NOT Equal
__________________________________________________________________
At the peak
Of daybreak
She dances
In what’s left
Of the
Moons gloaming
Light
While the
Stars sparkle
One last time
It was HER time
To commune
With her world
__________________________________________________________________
Plain Face
Shy Smile
Quiet Demeanor
Until She’s Happy
Unnoticed & Unheard
Rarely Forceful or Bold
Easy Going with a Broken Mold
Never Was a Beauty
Fearful but Motivated
Cautious but Kind
And just wait until you see
That Soul is Simply
What Everyone Wants To Hold
__________________________________________________________________
Never worry
Dear One
You will be apprised
Of what is in my heart
If you Read my words
You’ll Feel how I’ve hurt
And never Fear
It’s not up to you
To help me Heal
____________________________________________________________________
Go ahead
I really don’t mind
Vilify me
Put me down
Speak your
Insidious words
Lash out
Against what
You don’t know
Tear me down
I promise you
I’ll get up again
Soil my name
I’ll keep
Coming back
Allow your jealousy
To speak
You’ll NEVER
Be like ME
____________________________________________________________________
Your hand around my throat
Your claws in my heart
Your boot deep in my stomach
Your ropes tied around my feet
But My Soul
You shall NEVER keep
_____________________________________________________________________
Lightning never strikes a heart twice
_____________________________________________________________________
She had searched
For her home
All over the globe
Here & there
She had heard the rumors
But something kept
Her feet moving
Yes, she had paused
Over there
A time or two
Thinking home was that
Until her heart fell flat
Then it was time
To Move On
____________________________________________________________________
She’s special in her own way
She’s walks at her own pace
It’s not in her
To be what the rest are
If you can’t see that
You’re flat out blind
____________________________________________________________________
It’s hard work
Getting behind her mask
But once you see
How beautiful her soul can be
You’ll wonder why
No one has before tried
To understand her
She’s all you ever dreamed of
And once lost
You’ll spend the rest of your life
Trying to recapture
What SHE was
_____________________________________________________________________
As the daylight dawns
The Sunday Sun warms
This cold bed that has haunted
The music flows
Against my soul
Reminding me always
I will walk alone
And I’ll be just fine
_____________________________________________________________________
Trust me when I say
Better men
Have tried to break me
They did not succeed
Cause I am
A stronger Breed
______________________________________________________________________
If you break my heart, I will mend.
And my soul will always be as good, as it has ever been.
______________________________________________________________________
Oh how I dream
Of the day when
Love rises above
The messy muck
When you can count
That someone will
Have your back
When you are down
Celebrate the good times
Wipe those tears away
When you cry
How I dream
Of what will never be
______________________________________________________________________
It was her routine
Waking early in the morn
Sippin her coffee
Sorting herself out
Riding herself of the nightmares
That dared to haunt
Praying today would be different
Than every day before
But she goes on & on
Pushing thru the pain
& dancing in the rain
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I’m Done
Running around
I’m Done
Searching for what I want
I’m Done
Chasing what ain’t for me
I’m Done
Waiting for you to get on board
I’m Done
Changing to please someone
I’m Done
Not speaking
I’m Done
Not being
Cause you didn’t want to see
ME
______________________________________________________________________
Engage my heart
Enjoy my mind
Take the good
And the bad
Either that resides
Be real & be true
And my soul
Will be All for You
_______________________________________________________________________
Real Love Never tells you that You Are Not Enough
_______________________________________________________________________
The Angel within me
Will forgive the misery
But
The Demon in me
Won’t let it slide
_____________________________________________________________________
If you open your eyes, the truth will no longer be blind.
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